memory

Sometimes, i look through my photo albums posted in my fb.
I look through the memories with my friends in UKM
It's simple when there is no conflict and comparison
It's happy when we all go travel
but it will change when there is conflict
It changes when someone changes
It changes when someone realizes
It changes when someone hides
I miss those days..

I look through my family photo albums..
feel like crying
feel like going home
i realized that I left home for so long
When I am helpless, I need shield from family
I think 1day I will go home~~
when i am hopeless

I look through my bf photo album and the diary i wrote
I did appreciate him at the very first beginning
I told myself to appreciate him
but i changed
I start to complain nowadays
I start to take more n more from him
I start to compare
I thk it's time to appreciate whatever he does to me

I look through my self portrait
I grew up
I look older
I look slimmer
I look matured
but still, I am childish
I need to grow up internally
I miss my naive smile
I miss my real laugh out loud
im helpless
I don't know what i can do

your heartbeat

New baby finally born on 3rd of MAY.
My sister's birthday is actually on 5th of March, so the date is just the other way round. So cute!

many people ask me the reason for staying at Korea for 1 month, it's because of her~~ Love ya!
I am not a tender girl, not a "mama" kind of lady..
I myself don't have the psychological preparation for a new born baby, not even a marriage yet.

However, when i first saw the baby, she is so sweet..
she is the present from GOD to my sister.
My brother-in-law loved her soso much and kept on praising her pretty likes Miss korea..haha
A very happy family that melts me
And 1 evil truth:

I am an Aunty now!!!

Back finally

Im back finally..
I realised that i prefer germany more than malaysia at this moment..
It's too hot here
Just love the summer at germany..
Change back the time zone
Start new life
Waiting for 2012
Go back to kch soon
Decide my future road
Many things to be done and considered
I dont wanna make any wrong decision anymore

Review

these few days, i started to review my past.
I realized that I am actually a lovely girl.
I had many friends.
But i used to do everyth by my own ( not saying i am strong or GENG )
I think i have a very bad attitude towards work.
I have my own idea always and i am not good in explaining and expressing.
I used to talk to myself, tell myself what to do in the next step.
And sometimes, my brain works too fast to process things I want to say.
I have said someth wrong or maybe hurtful but usually it happened to ppl i don't really care.
I easily get angry.
I always guess the hidden msg from ppl's action and expression.
This make my mind complicated.
I think my brain is almost fully occupied.
HAHA, a brain full of useless stuff...
Sometimes i really hope I can be just simple.
But i don't want to be cheated and fooled.
Grrrrrrrr...what am i writing?????
fine! stupid review on 27sept!

she is sick

My funny plus crazy plus act cute sister is sick.
I am quite worried bout you.
When do you become so weak?
Easy to get sick.

You are alone in KL. Nobody takes care of you.
After exam i will call you.
You know wad?
How many times you see a missed call without any number?
Those are from me!

Please, answer my call ya! Miss you~
Everytime i think of you, i will cry..don't know why!
too much of memories between us~
we did a lot of good thing and also bad things together ( i think bad things more)
miss you!