plan my meal

plan my meal everyday.but I never follow the plan..=.=
Yesterday night ate cheese baked rice with hubby, end up sleeping with a big tummy
Start to think for a light lunch for today

1. breakfast as usual of cos..
2. 1 big hotdog (steam it with rice only, no fried no bbq)
3. lemon juice to keep away from the fat...
4. green bean soup for tea time
5. No dinner

now i have gone through my breakfast at 830am.
and my green bean is overcooked and "long" jor...
smelly in the kitchen (please, don't complaint me *kitty eyes*)

I was playing sim social in my room..totally forgotten my green beans were in the pot!
Until~~
"hubby, y gt bbq smell 1? who is in the kitchen, and didn't tak k of her food..ish ish ish"
"yaloh hor..mayb neighbour gua"
......
after 1minute,
"beibei, u were cooking green bean jus now right?!!"
OMG...
yaya..i was!

spoil my mean planned.
fine!
cincai eat lah then...=.=

200811

I wake up
I hear silence
Nobody is at home
It's a totally silence morning
"Morning" I talk to myself

I gonna settle my lunch alone =(
I gonna do cheesecake alone =(
I gonna watch PPS alone =(
I gonna emo alone =(

Everytime we argue, i will shout "single better lah, i wanna have my own life, leave me alone!!"
it's actually a lie to myself
Nobody wish to be lonely
miss my bbybby and my family now~~

When somebody gives bad comments on you

Gossip is nature of human beings

When somebody gives bad comments on you, you should feel happy
They see you
They watch on you
They care bout you
and you are usually the opposite of the "bad comments"
Unless They are true enough to talk in front of you like a true friend-- Then you should really look into your mistake, appreciate those true words.

Jealousy always the main cause for "bad comments" to occur
You will see those gossipers are a group of LOSER
They are not confident
They are not good enough
They use another way to hit you down..

Please, see clearly..
You are actually the best and shinning 1..
You are the winner already..
Trust yourself to be the winner of yourself...

Let's really watch up our bad sides and improve them
Let's be clear with our weakness and strength..

smile naturally =)

don't play with me lah god

don't play with me lah
yesterday night my hubby said professor mayb on holiday now
coi coi coi
I don't think so as there is still 1 more week for the exam period

Prepare myself with result and CV
Who know the professor really on holiday until nex mon.
and his room is under renovation now
I was like WHAT?!!!

what what what
???

Alright, what to do?
waste a week with waiting?
find another prof?
thesis thesis thesis...!!!

I am a super stressed person
I can't just wait without doing anyth
Can't relax can't sleep
This will be really a long WEEK to me~~~

cry...but no tear cos not sad but geram

normal 1

random

waiting for my hubby to wake up and we gonna work together, lunch together..

Yest, my housemate stick a notice on the kitchen's door
she didn't want to clean the kitchen and throw the rubbish this time, cos those garbage are not accumulated by her.
Those rubbish are not produced by me as well.
So i planned to talk with her.
From the things she told me, i felt heartpain for her..
MY god, she bears with the DIRTY housemate for 2years.
I just moved to here for around 5months, i am not going to bear with her anymore. I already plan to discuss with her. How could she bear in this way?
Clean the kitchen always, help her to throw those very smelly and "wak dak" rubbish!

The main problem is everytime we discuss bout the cleaning problem, dat dirty bitch acts like she is the cleanest, dry and tidy girl!
Everytime i pass by her room, and accidentally look into her room, i feel like living in hell!
Her room is messy till MAX
A fakey girl!
They did a time table for cleaning before, but she did nothing she didn't follow the rules.

A good news:
She and the pity housemate going to move end of the september. Yippy!
I will have 2 new housemates
And I must do a proper working time table for kitchen, garbage and bathroom!
=)

I gonna find Professor to discuss my thesis.
And return my old key to the old department
3rd time changing my thesis topic. GO!!

130811

WHY?
always ask why to myself
why got this kind of ppl?
why want to hurt me?

I reli hate those selfish ppl
today evening i reli broke down.
cried as loud as i can

why always let me met this kind of ppl
selfish
and show others the worst way to go
keep telling how good to take this way
on the other hand
he takes the another "so called bad" road

I am regret for helping them
i hate it
I wont help anymore
i didnt take advantage of u
and u too..
dn take advantage over me

I hate ppl bully my family
but wad i can do is
faster finish and go back

i need support
everytime not hapi
i can only tell sister and bf

wad did i do wrong?
i dont talk during exam cos i just dn wanna share any knowledge with that Sxxx ppl
i wanna b selfish towards them
I hate him when he saying he is going to fail
and at the end he is safe
why?

why why why?
can you just die???

You are killing me

August exams really killed me~

6subjects in total, 2 did in July, 4 in August.
2 of them are totally taught and exam in german language! They really killed me
Read again and again..
With some rest in between.
Slept with stress and yet awake for the whole night..

Finally, it ends!
I think i am not worried about those exams, bcos i am more afraid of starting my NEW thesis AGAIN.
My brain is full of time table for next week.
Which lecturer to find?
What kind of title to get? software, hardware or combination?
Which department?
many many question-mark.

THESIS kills me softly from beginning till now.
Hard time comes.
I wanna go back to protect my mum.
I hate ppl bully her.