You are always right!

You are always right as u never really think for the others.
You want everyone to live like your way.
You force them to change like u.
SO you ever stand at their sides and think for them?
They will be crazy under your so called CARE!
Do you really talk with them? or you just speaking to them.
do you know the difference?
Talk is both sides speaking.
Speaking is just telling others about your stuff.

Do you think u really understand them?
Do you think that you know them with just knowing their favourite food, favourite activity, favourite shape, favourite colour?
NOPE!
That is just something about appearance and very common habits.

When you have done something wrong, nobody dare to scold or even stare at you, not because you are right?
But you won't appreciate ppl's care~~
You will finally think you are right
everyone need to bear with you but you don't have to.
PLEASE!
you are no longer a child..

I doubt

22years..
What i have been done for these 22 years??
i lived without care
i lived without myself
i lived just to fulfil others

i am counting what i have been done for these 22 years.
i studied studied and studied!
i hurt hurt and hurt
everything is terrible and miserable for me
nothing can make me smile.

should this continue like for another 22years?
how can i make a big change since it's fixed?
since it had become routine?
i can't..i don't have the courage!
life is really short!
i have gone through my life by the same way..
i never lost myself cos i never found myself..
who am i?

i am not lazy

I am not lazy in updating my blog..
i have a lot of ideas to write out..but there are some reasons that hold my ideas..
I am now thinking of what to do with this blog..
i love blogging but it doesn't mean i can simply blog..

whatever i wanna do in my life, i have to ask for permission..
this is so called THIAN SU KIAN's life..

Lost jor

hihihi, sorry for hiding myself for so many days..
Do you miss me?
This semester is kinda busy for me.

MONDAY:
from 8am to 2pm power electronics and electromagnetic compability classes with tutorials
(our cafe closes at 2pm =( )
then 4pm to 5pm solid state electronics tutorial again.

TUESDAY:
11am to 1pm MRFT (microwave and radiofrequency technics)laboratory work.
2pm to 7pm MRFT classes and tutorials.

WEDNESDAY:
8am to 11am mobile communication classes with tutorial.
12pm to 3pm power system lecture + tutorial.

THURSDAY:
12pm to 4pm solid state electronics lecture with tutorial again.

FRIDAY:
power system laboratory in afternoon ( i forgot the time as there are only 3 labs for this subjects)

Can you see how busy i am?
i have thesis to be done somemore. Once i have free time no matter it's only 1hour or 45mins, just go to the lab sit there and pretending i am doing something..
I have  private subject to be studied: communication skill. I'm leaning to talk with my supervisor with very friendly nice tune. BUT... I DON'T HAVE PATIENT!!
I am not good in saying something fake and pretending to be friend with people i don't like. SORRY, i need to get myself a MASK!
and lastly.. my internet technician fly me aeroplane. I didn't attend the classes just to wait for him to come for telefon line instllation, but he skipped me! WTF..
another appointment at 27th..long time to wait..stay in a lonely house with no internet access..pity me!
this coming friday until monday are holidays, but i have no idea what to do..stay in lonely house with laptop without internet...
=(

Narcotic

Yesterday i went to dental check up..AGAIN!
and today it's the last session.
yesterday i went for right side teeth repair and filling.
There was a very big difference in this procedure.
The dentist inject narcotic drug before the treatment.
It's super pain!!
but there was no pain throughout the whole process. First time i went through a painless filling treatment.
My mouth was crooked to the left side when i smiled, it's kinda ugly!!

Today will have the left side session! MY god..I hate needle now! At first for the teeth extraction I was so excited for the narcotic drug, never felt the effect. now i super hate it!!!

Yesterday it's our 1st EMC class, the lecturer kept repeating 'nevertheless' this word..SWEAT!!
So sleepy and boring although it's finally taught in english not deutsch..
How was your day??
Stay happy friends!!

Selfish human

I am selfish, I admit!

Everyone is selfish, love themselves more than anyone in this world.
BUT, when you are getting older, your selfishness will decreasing as well.
Becoz, you will realise you can do anything for yourself as you are just waiting for death, but you can do more for your dearies daughter and son.
MUM and PUPPY are always the BEST!

I used to call my daddy as PUPPY, learnt from a HK drama when i was young. I remember the actor is au yong zheng wa..

We are all selfish. sometimes, you may hurt someone when you are chasing over your dream and goal. Sometimes, you want everthing to be perfect without considering others' feeling. Sometimes, you just want something good and you just simply throw away the bad ones. or sometimes, you don't even realise you are doing selfish things.

nobody know others' well, and, do you know yourself well?
nope!
if you believe in god, god is watching you, and he knows everything u did.
he knows you the best.
I am not good to talk bout religion here..So, don't ask me whether i believe in GOD or not..

when you look at your loved ones, try to put aside the selfishness sometimes to make everything more lovely and peaceful~~
It's hard.. but it's simply easy if you love them..

a year without me...love you!

continued~~

harlo, readers and bloggers..
not updating my blog for few days already..
haven't share the story of wisdom tooth extraction.

I went to the dental clinic with 2 friends, 1 is hubby another 1 is adrien who can speak fluent german. hihi..
He helped me to tell the dentist not to pluck my upper wisdom teeth, i hope to at least left 2 wisdom teeth for me, not to be too stupid later..hehe...
Then started  to inject few dos of drug to make me feel painless during the operation. It's shouldn't be an operation if it was done without needlework. hmm..
I forced myself to close my eyes hardly, but my curiosity caused me to open my eyes widely..haha
So i watched the whole process with no pain, now i realised the power of drug..
the dentist very forceful in the operation, i can feel it's actually pain~~ auch!!
I saw the nurse sucking my blood out, non stop..my GOD! i need to take in IRON later..
The dentist cheated me twice, he told me "finish finish" but he still took out my tooth, then he told me "finish finish" again, but he held needle in hand. S**T, cheated me!
My tooth was cut into 2 pieces and took out twice...
For me, the most full-with-feel process is during the needlework, why?
because i expected it's not painful AT ALL, but i felt the needle going in my gum and coming out gain...eww!!
The whole process was better than my expectation..i always expect the worst thing to happen. =( very pessimistic..

What made me unsatisfied was: HE THREW AWAY MY TOOTH!!!
I wanna keep it as memory, but he throw it away...

After the operation, of course, went to pharmacy to get some medicine. My face swallen and looked unbalanced! I have taken some photo, but it's <yuck> for me...eww!!

cheat you all lah...hahaha