hard time

it's exam period, to be accurate, it's study period!
I choose to give up my dream, i choose to change thesis title, i choose to stay here for few more months.
what i need to do is pass all the exams, concentrate doing my new thesis(full time) to learn new things, and save money to stay for these few more months.
mum, i know u miss me, ask me to go back as fast as possible. But i can't do it, i am your stubborn daughter. I must pass with better result. I choose to stay.
It's hard time for me now.
I didn't burn midnight oil to study, but i burn it for thinking..
thinking of next step thinking of family and so on...
I can't study at night.. bad habit!
SUKI, it's final sem, just finish all the exams and you are free...!
say gayao!!

妈~

我刚刚睡醒，喝了杯水就开电脑，我怕我忘记了~
怕我忘记我的梦，我要记下来。。
我应该是起不来的，现在的眼睛是模糊的，所以应该回答错字。
我隐隐约约听到厨房有声音，我以为是妈妈在厨房准备早餐给我。
啊！！！我忘了，才写了四行我就忘了我的梦。
为什么都那么容易忘记好的梦？
噩梦就不管多久都记得。
特地起来写下它，结果还是忘了。。。
现在只是记得迷迷糊糊嗅到妈妈的味道，还以为是真的，想慢慢起床等候早餐，在有意识的时候才发现，不，妈妈好遥远，我好想她，想她为我做的每一份早餐，我才不会营养不足。
写着写着，泪掉了，我想我又想家了~~
（还在拼命去想起那个梦，可是我尿急了，该上厕所，该醒了！）

pigpig猪

小时候的我好喜欢芭比娃娃，因为家里不富有，又没男生送礼物。
那时常羡慕朋友亲戚，希望自己身边也有一个陪陪我。
所以以前妈妈亲手缝的小枕头，都非常喜欢，里头充满了回忆，我的尿我的味道。=P
渐渐长大了，有男朋友送礼物了，朋友也有送，就没那么珍惜了。
除非是蓝色的！
snoopy我的最爱，可是我都没有snoopy的娃娃啊！应该找不到吧！hubby,可以送我一个吗？
现在也开始喜欢pigpig猪，好可爱！只是。。。请问有大只的吗？我喜欢大只的，好抱点，可以沾沾熟睡时的口水。。=P
人在外地，真的想念放了整张床的娃娃。。我想你们，不知道你们还好吗？还是被妈给丢了。。哈哈

这是hubby送的

曾经陪伴我的

趴趴狗

在ukm陪着我的。。

剩下的没拍照，最爱的当然是第一个！！hubby我等snoopy和pigpig猪！！

bad luck girl~~

I AM A BAD LUCK GIRL!! definitely!

someone told me to think positive, then my luck will get better.
to someone: you are wrong...! =(

share a funny plus bad luck stuff with you all
I played millionaire game in brother tee's iphone4! I help him to promote his iphone, he is so proud with IT..hmm should be HER! not it..
Me, nancy and tee played together..
FIRST ROUND: i only stepped on 1 land and bought it. I stepped the tax paying and so called LUCKY DRAW and got into JAIL!!! haiz
They kept buying new lands that make me jealous so much..nvm, think positive, trust my luck..let's continue then
At last I bought only 2 lands, nancy trade another to me in total i had around 5 i think...ALOT right???  =.=
That's still small matter.. In this game i got into JAIL for 5times in total, they only got in once..can you see the difference?
In between, nancy almost bankrap, but at the end, i am the first to bankrap from 22M to infinity negative!!!
It's an unbelievable ending..nancy had no land at from the middle of the game till the end..but i am the first to lose..
Well, i was nt angry at all, my luck is just that miserable.. Knew it since long time ago..
So i don't buy TOTO, i don't tembak in the exam, i don't bet....i will be the LOSER~~~=(

There are few of my friends signed up for the ALICE internet plan. I am the 1 got the wrong plan which causes me pay more. I am the 1 get fined by ALICE cos i didn't return the old modem..but i DID!! complain and complain, no use..70 EURO, sikit only right???!!

Today quiz, i answered 5 question only, 5 is the minimum requirement to pass the exam. I actually did 6, but i was not sure whether it's correct or wrong, so i rubbed it..and finally i passed...i don't trust my luck, so i rubbed it..This incident again warns me to be hardworking a bit instead of guessing answer in the exam..i never get it correct!ok...fine!
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too many incidents!
please send me some luck GOD!!

you like rose?

hapy go lucky...=)

my lovely hair

should i cut my hair?
I love my hair so much..
I sayang my hair almost 24hours as long as i am awake..
I think all of my friends know it..
touch my hair nonstop in the class..but not when i am eating lah XD
i like my straight hair without straightening..
But there was an incident!
I love to do some gila hairstyle like dye my hair into blue..this damages my hair a lot..

Incident:
i make a AUNTY curl..and it was in black! super aunty
then i have to make it straight by straightening again cos cant tahan already..it's too messy!!
Then i dye it choco again...all these happened in just 3months.
can you imagine?

My hair now is totally broken! wow...
I can't handle it anymore...
frizzy hair, dry and damaged...
no shampoo and conditioner can cure..
haiz...
what to do? addicted in cutting down those breaking hair-end everyday...like a "自闭"person (by teejinkeat, cheap keat)
haiz...should i cut it short? or continue slowly treat it? cut the hair-end with patient and talk with it?

I miss you

I miss you mom.
I hear your voice from heart asking me to go back to you..
I know you are worried about me..
I will take k of myself..
I know there is tough change in our family now, i always stand by you..
I support you..
I know you need someone to talk, I will try to call you..but i couldn't stop my tear from falling when i talk with you..
This is because..
I MISS YOU MOM!!

I seldom take photo with you... 

Tear drops when i am writing this...=(

04062011

I am so lazy to think of the title of the blog post..hihi!
Yesterday i spent my whole day in the lab, struggled hard for the thesis.
It was so tension! a very bad stressed day of the week.
I never take a fresh and relaxing breath for 8months already, what to do?
not a happy post again, sorry..

At last, i went back to supermarket to buy a box of ice cream.
Eating sweet ice cream or choco can make me happy, but not in germany!
I am still not satisfied with the sweetness, I need something stronger-----alcohol!
Well, i didn't purposely buy alcohol to drink, but it's birthday gift from Liklen to my hubby.
5,2Percent of alcohol, mean nothing for u right? haha
I easily get red red face with alcohol. just a little is enough to make it like a red paprika!hoho...
Then i shout and sing..
and sleep~~~

A conclusion is: Alcohol keep me fresh and clear-headed.( as i can still see the lyric and sing nicely =.=) So don't take in anymore especially when i am tension! No use...haiz

before

after (** my face is not oily, but it's oily due to lotion =P)