plan my meal

plan my meal everyday.but I never follow the plan..=.=
Yesterday night ate cheese baked rice with hubby, end up sleeping with a big tummy
Start to think for a light lunch for today

1. breakfast as usual of cos..
2. 1 big hotdog (steam it with rice only, no fried no bbq)
3. lemon juice to keep away from the fat...
4. green bean soup for tea time
5. No dinner

now i have gone through my breakfast at 830am.
and my green bean is overcooked and "long" jor...
smelly in the kitchen (please, don't complaint me *kitty eyes*)

I was playing sim social in my room..totally forgotten my green beans were in the pot!
Until~~
"hubby, y gt bbq smell 1? who is in the kitchen, and didn't tak k of her food..ish ish ish"
"yaloh hor..mayb neighbour gua"
......
after 1minute,
"beibei, u were cooking green bean jus now right?!!"
OMG...
yaya..i was!

spoil my mean planned.
fine!
cincai eat lah then...=.=

200811

I wake up
I hear silence
Nobody is at home
It's a totally silence morning
"Morning" I talk to myself

I gonna settle my lunch alone =(
I gonna do cheesecake alone =(
I gonna watch PPS alone =(
I gonna emo alone =(

Everytime we argue, i will shout "single better lah, i wanna have my own life, leave me alone!!"
it's actually a lie to myself
Nobody wish to be lonely
miss my bbybby and my family now~~

When somebody gives bad comments on you

Gossip is nature of human beings

When somebody gives bad comments on you, you should feel happy
They see you
They watch on you
They care bout you
and you are usually the opposite of the "bad comments"
Unless They are true enough to talk in front of you like a true friend-- Then you should really look into your mistake, appreciate those true words.

Jealousy always the main cause for "bad comments" to occur
You will see those gossipers are a group of LOSER
They are not confident
They are not good enough
They use another way to hit you down..

Please, see clearly..
You are actually the best and shinning 1..
You are the winner already..
Trust yourself to be the winner of yourself...

Let's really watch up our bad sides and improve them
Let's be clear with our weakness and strength..

smile naturally =)

don't play with me lah god

don't play with me lah
yesterday night my hubby said professor mayb on holiday now
coi coi coi
I don't think so as there is still 1 more week for the exam period

Prepare myself with result and CV
Who know the professor really on holiday until nex mon.
and his room is under renovation now
I was like WHAT?!!!

what what what
???

Alright, what to do?
waste a week with waiting?
find another prof?
thesis thesis thesis...!!!

I am a super stressed person
I can't just wait without doing anyth
Can't relax can't sleep
This will be really a long WEEK to me~~~

cry...but no tear cos not sad but geram

normal 1

random

waiting for my hubby to wake up and we gonna work together, lunch together..

Yest, my housemate stick a notice on the kitchen's door
she didn't want to clean the kitchen and throw the rubbish this time, cos those garbage are not accumulated by her.
Those rubbish are not produced by me as well.
So i planned to talk with her.
From the things she told me, i felt heartpain for her..
MY god, she bears with the DIRTY housemate for 2years.
I just moved to here for around 5months, i am not going to bear with her anymore. I already plan to discuss with her. How could she bear in this way?
Clean the kitchen always, help her to throw those very smelly and "wak dak" rubbish!

The main problem is everytime we discuss bout the cleaning problem, dat dirty bitch acts like she is the cleanest, dry and tidy girl!
Everytime i pass by her room, and accidentally look into her room, i feel like living in hell!
Her room is messy till MAX
A fakey girl!
They did a time table for cleaning before, but she did nothing she didn't follow the rules.

A good news:
She and the pity housemate going to move end of the september. Yippy!
I will have 2 new housemates
And I must do a proper working time table for kitchen, garbage and bathroom!
=)

I gonna find Professor to discuss my thesis.
And return my old key to the old department
3rd time changing my thesis topic. GO!!

130811

WHY?
always ask why to myself
why got this kind of ppl?
why want to hurt me?

I reli hate those selfish ppl
today evening i reli broke down.
cried as loud as i can

why always let me met this kind of ppl
selfish
and show others the worst way to go
keep telling how good to take this way
on the other hand
he takes the another "so called bad" road

I am regret for helping them
i hate it
I wont help anymore
i didnt take advantage of u
and u too..
dn take advantage over me

I hate ppl bully my family
but wad i can do is
faster finish and go back

i need support
everytime not hapi
i can only tell sister and bf

wad did i do wrong?
i dont talk during exam cos i just dn wanna share any knowledge with that Sxxx ppl
i wanna b selfish towards them
I hate him when he saying he is going to fail
and at the end he is safe
why?

why why why?
can you just die???

You are killing me

August exams really killed me~

6subjects in total, 2 did in July, 4 in August.
2 of them are totally taught and exam in german language! They really killed me
Read again and again..
With some rest in between.
Slept with stress and yet awake for the whole night..

Finally, it ends!
I think i am not worried about those exams, bcos i am more afraid of starting my NEW thesis AGAIN.
My brain is full of time table for next week.
Which lecturer to find?
What kind of title to get? software, hardware or combination?
Which department?
many many question-mark.

THESIS kills me softly from beginning till now.
Hard time comes.
I wanna go back to protect my mum.
I hate ppl bully her.

开叉的头发

每天花上一个钟头的时间，剪着自己开叉的长发。

我一直相信努力去修剪，一定能把她救回。

可是他每天都在裂，好得了那一时，却还是不能恢复原来的样子。

只有把她剪短了，才能慢慢的留回以前亮丽的长发。

今早，突然觉得这些开叉的头发就像我做错的是那样。

没有得从来。

一，就是去投胎从来吧

二，就是去忘记藏起来

三，就是让他错下去

我从来不能保证自己做错一件事后，不会再重复！

改过自新，对我而言太难了

因为我固执

虽然做错了，会不停的想，可是过后还是会忍不住犯错，然后告诉自己，这就是我

除非---------刺激！有一些重要人物刺激我

我选择天天为头发剪上一个钟，都不要把她剪短

我选择天天做一点小错误都不要改变自己

难道改变了，真的就不会伤害了人？

she is sick

My funny plus crazy plus act cute sister is sick.
I am quite worried bout you.
When do you become so weak?
Easy to get sick.

You are alone in KL. Nobody takes care of you.
After exam i will call you.
You know wad?
How many times you see a missed call without any number?
Those are from me!

Please, answer my call ya! Miss you~
Everytime i think of you, i will cry..don't know why!
too much of memories between us~
we did a lot of good thing and also bad things together ( i think bad things more)
miss you!

Perfect~

Practice makes perfect!
Practice makes our bodies weak!
Weak makes us suffer!
Is being perfect good?

I am a person who want everything to b perfect =)
But i always remind myself, don't push myself too hard.
It's not good.

I always force myself to get the best result in exams
every exam!!
If you ask me what do you expect in this exam?
I always want the best.

If i did wrong, u ask me again what do i expect? I will cheat you!
I will tell you not so good, didn't put much hope!
But in deep of my heart, i am hoping to get the best!
The best is 100 of cos, no doubt!

I guess many of you think i am still childish and crazy.
100 only happens in childhood, secondary school.
But for me, I always believe this could happen!
Ya, i am stubborn!
I AM!

I want my life to be perfectly GOOD!
But i realised, i missed a lot of thing when i was pursuing for best result.
I didn't have any talent, singing or dancing, sorry, I can't!
No hobby~
Shopping can be considered as hobby?
At last, i find out my life isn't perfect. In fact, i should try out many new things.
Is it too late for me to realise?
Doubt!