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今天看了医生，明天就会拔牙了。

四颗都得拔掉，很不幸的！

一大早，起来就洗衣，昨晚睡不好，有点担心看医生时会不小心嘴巴关了。

煮了个面，念慈来看看我，应该还没有变骨头吧？ =P

医生听不懂英文，我还是第一次遇到！医生不爽病人，也是第一次！

可能是他没赚我的钱吧。这里看医生只需要给10欧，就可以看足个月了，因为每个月给的tax高达70欧，包括医药卡。

所以，拔四颗值得啦。。=.=

我的食欲回来了，刚才五点去买了donat吃，我很喜欢吃甜甜圈，尤其是白糖，最传统的。

这里的donat很好吃，可是很贵，已小个就要65cent了，X4就等于RM3了。3块钱吃个donat，你愿意吗？我愿意，因为我喜欢，那时刻又超怀念。

以前周日妈妈就会买donat给我们吃了，只有我和弟弟爱吃，第二就是油炸鬼，如果这里出价3欧，我也会买来吃！

donat是拿来奖励自己的，因为我今天很努力做lab。虽然最后只打了几行matlab，我很努力。

我其实只想写东西，可是却没有想法，或者说我很混乱，所以就写了今天发生什么事，这样简单得多！

我希望我二姐在这里，陪我说话！她会是最了解我的，而且看到他我都很想疼她。

想要一个了解我的人，坐在我旁边，不须多说她就明白。

想念你！

明天hubby回来了，陪我去拔牙，帮我搬家！明天4点拔牙，一定要吃个痛快才去送死。我请客，hubby！！

CRY~~

Thank for my friends who talk to me these few days..

I have waited for my mum's call for 2weeks..She didn't!
I was not feeling well, felt cold for the whole day!
I switched on the heater to warm myself but turned out dry skin! Itchy!! SxxK be polite!

I google for MATLAB solution for few weeks but yet I got nothing!
My hubby told me another bad news, lot of mechanical students failed because of matlab modelling! WTF! Be polite suki!
I am now in the middle of road, go straight or make a turn?

I don't want to cry especially in the night!
The more i tell myself not to cry, the more i cry...
STOP it please!

These few days i had no mood to eat anything, I wondered what's my weight now? super underweight?
Should I be happy that i achieved my goal for 40kg?
I cook very nasty these few days! put too much of water when i cook the rice, put too much of salt when i cook the mihun, put in the egg too early until it became a full-boiled egg, put too early the spaghetti made it soft like HELL! Be polite again!
So i wasted so many food these few days, throw and throw!
Finally a "tam jiak" me had no feeling towards food! good thing? =P
But i still love chocolate which can make me happy(my theory) and also keropok!
But i couldn't grab them!
so painful when i tried to eat them! haiz...

What a moody holiday! i am in holiday u know?? April is the schooling day...
Whatever, I don't feel like a holiday for me! no entertainment, no relaxing no HUBBY somemore...
sweat! =.=

Hope you all have a nice day..at least better than me.. =)
Sorry to bother you with my bad post...

this is 42kg...40kg will be???

Talk to me~~~

I love people talking with me no matter it's a SHE or HE..
I love listening to other's stories no matter SAD or HAPPY..
I love talking with other no matter SHIT or SWEET..

Talk to me~
I am bored!!

I have a very good friend. She purposely chat with me and tell me some funny jokes to make me smile. THANKS to her..You know who you are =)
I remembered some of my conversation with some friends. Every sentence and meaning. Of course I remembered very well about the conversation between me and my boyfriend BEFORE we were together =P
The memory before we got together is the sweetest!
The moment we talk the most and take the move to be a couple!
You ask me what did i talked with him yesterday?
hmm...I don't remember, but I think there must be at least this word "baobeibei" when he called me XD
Remembered some meaningful sentences from some friends. Feel the care..

And most of them(friends) are people i care in my heart..That's so called memory!
Memory with people i don't care, I guess I have thrown away..Blank my brain to keep memory of people i care =P
Friends, talk to me...I am not fierce! ngek ngek ngek..

Ignore my scar on arm..=P

Wisdom tooth

These few days, i guess my status in twitter or facebook bother you guys a lot..quite annoying! ya, I know..
But seriously, the pain of the ulcer right beside your wisdom tooth is damn unbearable.
I feel like cutting off the ulcer, but of course I didn't do it. I am now still writing my blog complaining here..=(

Well, I sometimes think of plucking the wisdom tooth. But i am so afraid of losing tooth.
Since young, i must be called for dentist's checking. My teeth always be given B/C for the healthiness. DAMN!
No matter how much i had prepared myself to go for dentist's checking, still, there were at least 5teeth being complained by the dentist. 5teeth were rejected and needed for a "rescue" operation. another DAMN!
Wanna see my mouth open?
nah...my teeth are black most of them! =P

Nowadays, i go for dental check up every year..sometimes 2times per year..
The first 2times, I had 5teeth to be rescued, so it's 10teeth.
And now, I wondered is the doctor lazy to check my teeth or my teeth are really that healthy?
The 3rd time check up, dentist told me "healthy, very good!"
I jumped, and said "really? 1st time no need to do operation! really?"
I was damn stupid and funny! =P

I dreamed about myself having no teeth. I cried I woke up.
I am so afraid...!
So i promised myself not to pluck any tooth unless it is really spoiled.
So i bear the pain of the ulcer caused by wisdom teeth for 3years.
more than 10times per year having NEW ulcer at OLD place.(either right or left beside the wisdom tooth)
Getting more and more pain.
Now, i decided to pluck it out. and pluck another side out.
Sorry wisdom teeth!
Hope you don't take away my wisdom as well.
I still want to be clever...=P

smile! ^^

ngekngekngek!

原谅

原谅是件很难的事情，我承认我做不到！
我不是伟大的人。
我无法原谅你，因为你所做的超乎我能接受的范围。应该开心的是，我遇到了让我真的生气的人，可能是自己在乎了。
也许你觉得我小气，因为你根本就不曾在乎我。

一开始，来个视而不见，再来个听而不闻，到最后，我用自己的心去感觉你所想的，你太恐怖了。。我无法接受无法原谅。
以前我以为是我错，我先怀疑，那就是我不好。
结果你早已经行动了。
这证明什么？
你比我清楚。

我在乎才会那么辛苦，到现在都一样。那又如何？你曾在乎吗？
我告诉你，我原谅不了你，除非你变好了！
保护自己最好的方法就是学会不在乎你。

你们，原谅了你的敌人吗？

女拳-23集：学会去爱你的敌人，原谅他们！

my first 1,0

The marking system in germany in totally different with UKM.
Don't ever try to dream for 4,0.
4,0 in Germany is the lowest mark to pass the exam while 1,0 is the highest!
4 marks difference makes the grade's change.

I am happy here to get my first 1,0 for control system!
I have taken control system in UKM before and i got a B if not mistaken.
I was angry because i still remembered that i got 90 for my midsem and i finished all the questions during the exam. The given time is very short and not enough for most of my classmates. The result made me sad for few days as i could remember. stupid right? yea, i am that stubborn, gene from my puppy.
Now i did it!! Unbelievable.

I refresh the page more than 5times. I closed and opened the page more than 10times. STUPID right? like a child got her 1st 100 when she was in kindergarden. =)
I was not sure that is the mark or not. As this is the first time i check my result through UDE website.
I asked a CHINA boy beside me in the lab. Pointed to the 1,0 and asked " is this the mark?"
His expression a little weird. He seemed very curious with my question and said YES. It's because i am doing my thesis, and they should just assume I have studied for at least 4semesters.
AHAH, I am student from UKM for 1 year study.

Stupid right? i laughed at myself.
I am now still very excited and wanna find someone to celebrate with me. But there is no ONE.
My hubby is in ITALY!
This weekend lah, make cake as celebration for myself with my best friend- nancy!
Very short but meaningful update from me..(at least meaningful for myself)
I hope to get something new for myself as a motivation for next 1,0. but...save money is 1 of my goal~~
hmm....

say CONGRATZ!!

think of getting myself fridge..should I? 

these 3 days

Long time no update my blog.
Start to be lazy.hmm...

Well, it's all because my hubby has back for 3days, then he will leave for a 7-days trip to ITALY.
sad. Don't forget my souvenir..=P
BTW, I hope he won't be too tired for that trip! We always spend the whole day walking here and there, not to waste our time in hotel right? This will be quite tiring!
I have to stay here waiting for him..=(

I am a JUNK FOOD queen, but here i wanna announce something.
Yesterday, i was having stomach-ache in the night after taking
1. breakfast (coco crunch+milo)
2. tomyam fried mihun
3. ice-cream
4. choco
5. fried chicken (taste nice but i still miss KFC)
6. french fried
7. cola
8.milk
9. apple
then turn out stomachache.
I think it's because too HOT! my stomach can no longer stand for it. Forgot to take some green bean soup somemore..hmm...
WARNING: don't stay in room for 1 whole day! you will start craving for junk food when you get bored!

I am alright now..no worries =)

I told myself that these 3days i don't care about weight, Just eat nice things with hubby! So i gained weight i think.
We went for KFC, got a DEAL FOR 2 BUCKET!
I took in 2chickens, 2 small chicken wings, french fried and 2 coke! full until...not yet vomit! =P
After that, I will have 7-days slimming program to go! haha...(this is not really a promise because i don't think i can do it)
It's time to find back old time SUKI who works hard for everything she wants with fast speed! wow..

Take care all my friends! say NO to junk food..=P

hubby took for me, tam jiak face!!

silence

Do you ever face such condition? There is nothing but silence between you and him/her.
You start to dig your brain to create some topics to talk.
You hope there is something happen to destroy the silence.
and then, you hope someone appear now.

Both of you can feel each other's heartbeat.
You can hear very little noise around you.
But still that is non-affected noise.
The feel of worrying and anxious is still there.
You are worried of what she/he thinks about you.
You are praying for time's flying.

This happened because you are not close to her/him but yet you care for her/him.
If you no longer care, you will just walk away or talk more bullshit without considering her/his feeling.
If you are close with her/him, you can just speak out anything you want, or even a very little stupid thing. No shame!
I am talkative. But, sometimes i do face this condition. And i will start thinking, Do i want to know you more deeper? or it's just enough for now?
If i want it to be close, I will try my best to talk! of course the person's response is important. It shows their willingness.
There is no sound with one hand clapping.(一只手拍不响)

MISS you~~

I never know myself will miss you so much.
I always thought i can just work with myself.
In fact, i miss you a lot now.

Is it because i am now very stressed and not happy with my thesis?
missing you is the excuse for me not to do anything for my thesis?
Faster come back!
Cook for me pls...i miss your nasty food!
eat too much of tasty food will only gain weight =P

I miss you mom.
I didn't received any call from you for 1 week ++.
Faster reload and call me!

I miss you my sister.
Faster buy choco and give me!

I miss you my malaysia friends!
faster graduate and find a steady job!
then u got money to spend me!
i want free yam cha that time =P

I miss you all~~
and i hate laboratory..
so silent! so heartless! so moody!

SIGH!

not happy

yeah! ignore my shoe boxes! i owned too many pairs of shoes now..hmm

The end

Finally it's the end of exam period!
I was very happy and excited yesterday.
I talked a lot, jumped here and there..
We celebrated yennleng's birthday..
when he saw the cake guess what he said?
"mine 1 ah? help me celebrate ah?"
wanna beat him up! haha...

We sang selamat hari jadi + happy birthday song for him...
We steamboat together..
There was an accident! Me and nancy prepared 2 types of soup - chicken and tomyam
but kengleong wanna try out satay sauce steamboat.....ended up 3soups.
With mihun soaping in the soup, the chicken and tomyam were finished. =P
FULL dinner for me..
and a piece of cake for each of us as desert.
It considered to be a birthday celebration or afterexam celebration? hmm...

No photo. sorry. my camera is not with me now. my hubby is now in Prague with my camera. miss you~~~~~my camera! =P
He finally done with his thesis and exam. A stress-free holiday for him. Jealous~

chiken+tomyam+satay==shit at last also..haiz

all the photo taken by nancy lim photographer..

3838

Tell you something.
In 2011, this is the year which i know there is a 38festival.
I never know 3rd of March can become a festival for girls.

I miss my sister gang in malaysia.
If i am now in Malaysia, i guess i am ma-pou-ing with my sisters, gossiping and 38-ing.
Share a bed and sleep without brush teeth and wash face.
It's kinda crazy but fun and memorable~~

Hmm...start recall back which room to stay for gossip?

I remembered that we all prepared a mooncake with a candle on it for xoei birthday.
We attack her and boom her room in the night.
Sang birthday song.
ate mooncake.
and gossip..
Gossip always be the best activity among girls. yippy.

Now, i can only sampat with nancy. or 38 with sister through internet.
That's not enough fun.
no keropok.
no "guci"

Miss my 38 gang! it's not only a girl gang, but there are few guys joining us too.
of course it's not including ma pou!!!
=P
you know who you are...

miss ya~~

we share we care~~

What to do?

What to do after exam?
naughty me! think of what to do now since the exam is on this Friday..too early?
but what can i do in germany?
Hubby going to Plague on 13rd for....emm, forgot how many days! =P
Hubby, dont forget my "small little" sorvenir..
then he going to ITALY on 22nd again for ..don't knw how many days..
again..this time i want "a little BIG" sorvenir..=P
MILAN many bags many clothes..u know i LOVE them!

So what should i do?
NANCY, we do our cake again right? U don't forget har! don't ever try to fly me aeroplane!
I couldn't follow hubby to those trips due to my THESIS..
but after exam, at least need to eat something nice~
go somewhere for crazy shopping~
or even do something crazy~~
but the life is just TOO normal..haiz
good or bad?
not good for a playful girl like me loh..=P

After exam, i will take leng leng photo..IN ROOM.
make up and take again.
I am afraid my BB cream is fully unused!
I read a news about BB cream, it contains too many unknown ingredients which will cause infection.
When 1 product is too popular and hot, people will start imitate it and the quality is doubtable. it's no more secure.
Buying branded and quality guaranteed is better than taking those risks right?
yeah..MONEY MONEY! come come come...at least let me dream of YOU~~

hope got new update after exam.yippy!!

love this photo a lot...thx waiwah!

Beginning of March

I went to laboratory this morning. I can't find any information needed. So i spent almost 1hour playing ZUMA.
Sorry, I know it's kinda weird. LAZY me..

after lunch, I went to buy food..
A lot a lot until 20euro let me show you..

expensive or cheaper than malaysia 1?

my hair getting longer lur...but all the ends are broken..=(

less pimples liao...

i like kopiko...

my pimples less already. I think it's because of the product i was using. Not suit me.
Once i changed, it ok already..yippy! say congrats to me!!haha
I change to NIVEA. I think of buying CLINIQUE, but i don't want my skin being so pampered by those branded facial product. SHE must know to protect herself, own antivirus own protection.
The smell of NIVEA product never change. It makes me recall back my national service moment. I was using NIVEA sun protection product. But i still turned into DARKie..

Smell and taste memorise our past! You will somehow recall it when you have it back.